SPOTLESSmind

2007-02-26T01:22:00.001-08:00

i dont like mondays.
SOME people just HAVE to come and ruin it further.

i wont retaliate.
cos then it'll just make me as childish as you are.
it wasnt him who started it.
it was you, and im aware of it.
but i wont bring myself down to your level.
i've got better things to do.

maybe superficially, we seem knitted.
but there isnt substance.
all of this we're putting up is just an act, isnt it?
all of this we're putting up is just an act.
it's a mask for the world to see.

i've said it before, and i'll say it again:
we wont be enemies. we'll just be strangers.
i dont hate you. i just dont know you.

2007-02-23T03:27:00.001-08:00

nervous breakdowns.
been getting them a lot lately.
it's the feeling of agony, pain..
and most of all: stress.
it's when you sit there, stare at the pile of work in front of you and start to cry.
it's when you sit and stone.
it's when your brain starts lagging or even hangs.
it's when you just dont feel like doing anything else but cry.

but it's when you know there's Someone there to love and care about you.

bcos of You, it's all brand new.

2007-02-23T03:14:00.001-08:00

im standing with the faith of my Miracle Maker.

2007-02-09T21:02:00.000-08:00

i've cried all my tears dry,
bled all my blood dry,
but the pain doesn't seem to go away.

thank you, i've never felt so awful in such a long time.

2007-02-09T20:56:00.000-08:00

ouch.

2007-02-08T17:33:00.000-08:00

"as long as stars shine down from Heaven,
& the rivers run into the sea.
'til the end of time,
forever You're the only love i'll need.
in my life, You're all that matters.
In my eyes, the only truth I see.
when my hopes and dreams have shattered.
You're the one that's there for me.

imagine me without You.
i'd be lost and so confused.
i wouldn't last a day i'd be afraid without You there to see me through.
imagine me without You.
Lord, You know it's just impossible.
bcos of You
it's all brand new.
My life is now worth while.
i can't imagine me without You."

-imagine me without you by Jaci Velasquez.

2007-02-08T17:24:00.000-08:00

oh, what the hell.
='(

2007-02-05T21:47:00.000-08:00

"& the words that seem so hard to say
come out when you've gone away.
just stay a little while & hear me say.

that i want you here tonight,
& I need you by my side.
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you."

-one more moment by ronin.

hectic but enjoyable week.
a lot of tears but definitely more smiles.
only now..
do i believe that true platonic friendships DO exist.

2007-01-25T17:45:00.000-08:00

close every door to me,
hide all the world from me
bar all the windows and shut out the light.
do what you want with me,
hate me and laugh at me
darken my daytime and torture my night.

just give me a number instead of my name.
forget all about me and let me decay.
i do not matter,
i'm only one person.
destroy me completely then throw me away.

if my life were important i
would ask will I live or die,
but I know the answers lie far from this world.
for i know i shall find my own piece of mind,
for i have been promised a land of my own.

2007-01-20T22:08:00.000-08:00

"i'll hang from your lips,
instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.

& i've dropped out,
i've burned up,
i fought my way back from the dead.
tuned in, turned on,
remembered the things that you said:

i'll be your crying shoulder.
i'll be love's suicide.
i'll be better when im older.
i'll be the greatest fan of your life."

-i'll be by Edwin McCain.

you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be.

2007-01-18T16:49:00.000-08:00

hit me in the head and tell me im dreaming.
this almost perfect life has gotten me all pepped up.
i cannot seem to find a reason to be angry.
or irritated.
or even annoyed.
im happy.
im joyous.
im over-the-moon.
im elated.

school's been.. copable.

home's been better.
my room walls are pink now.
and ive got new tables.
bigger ones, for bigger loads of homework.
=D

i cant forget that day.
and the things you said to me.
thank you. =) i enjoy every moment spent with you.

2007-01-12T19:29:00.000-08:00

TGIF.

2007-01-09T17:55:00.000-08:00

for you, a thousand times over.

im fumbling for the right words to say.
but all that can spill out from my mouth now is:
im sorry.

i really am.
and if i could only stop the car and hold on to you, i'll never let go.

for you, a thousand times over.

2007-01-05T20:53:00.000-08:00

SCHOOL!
something i've been looking forward to since the middle of holidays.
at least i have something to do now.
though the first few days have been rather boring, at least ive something to wake up to every morning.

i guess the insomnias and lack of sleep have been getting me rather moody lately.
i dont like it when i dont get enough sleep.
my days will be horrible.
so if you happen to come in my way when im moody,
then i'd have to say: God bless you.

friends come & go.
for some, they stay with them till Thy kingdom comes & Thy will be done.
as for me.. they come & disappear.
i dont have childhood friends.
i dont bother keeping them.
i guess friends arent exactly the priorities in my life.
there are definitely more impt things to me than friends.
but, of course, i wouldnt mind if once in awhile..
someone comes & crosses my path, and we'll walk together a bit..
make a little difference in each other's lives, then move on to our own paths.
i mean, who wouldnt mind that?

for the year 2006, i must say.
ive established some new friendships.
and ive personally destroyed some.
im happy for the people in my life now.
and im happy for the ppl who just got out.
at least i wont have to waste more time.

& for the year 2007, ive got a policy to follow:
only mix with people whom you'll change their lives & they'll change yours.
im slowly starting to drop all those who arent a blessing to me, and me to them.
maybe just a simple "hi" and "bye", our aquaintancy will be on.
but more than that..
please, NO MORE.

my definition of a good year:
a year with more bumpy rides, more storms, and more trials & tribulations.
i believe we learn from there.
well, at least i do.
and for me, i come out stronger.
2006 has definitely been the hardest year for me yet.
but things are gonna get better in 2007.
more bumps, more storms, more trials, more tribulations, more distractions.
more problems.
boy, i cant wait.

& when i end this year, i wanna end it good.
i wanna look back & say:
this has been the best year yet.

2006-12-26T16:06:00.000-08:00

somewhere out there
beneath the pale moonlight.
someone's thinking of me
& loving me tonight.

somewhere out there
someone's saying a prayer.
that we'll find one another
in that big somewhere out there.

even though I know
how very far apart we are,
it helps to think we might
be wishin on the same bright star.
& when the night winds starts
to sing a lonesome lullaby,
it helps to think we're sleeping
underneath the same big sky.

somewhere out there
if love can see us through,
then we'll be together
somewhere out there
out where dreams come true.

2006-12-26T15:36:00.000-08:00

this christmas wasn't a good one.
more tears than laughter, i'd say.

this year's been a good one, though.
ive felt all kinds of feelings.
angry, betrayed, backstabbed, down, remorseful, guilty, complacent.
yet, ive also been happy, over-the-moon, crazy, satisfied, proud & most of all..
loved.

this year was good.
but next year will be better.
& it just keeps getting better every time.

i'll write a list of the things ive accomplished this year.
to find that.. hey! the list doesnt seem too short.

2006-12-22T22:32:00.000-08:00

"why do my thoughts spell your name?
why does my heart not beat the same?
when will the sand feel both our feet?
when will our hands tingle, when will they meet?"

-pages from my journal.

3 more days to christmas.
all the shopping's done.
all the presents're wrapped.
all the lights are put up.
now,
we wait..
for the snow. =)

2006-12-18T21:19:00.000-08:00

GLORY!

2006-12-18T21:08:00.000-08:00

"it is FINISHED."

2006-12-17T22:16:00.000-08:00

"found love beyond all reason.
You gave Your life Your all for me
& called me Yours forever.

caught in the mercy fall out
i found hope, found life, found all i need.
You're all i need.

the time has come to stand for all we believe in.
so i for one im gonna give my praise to You.

today, today,
it's all or nothing.
all the way, the praise goes out to You.
yeah, all the praise goes out to You.
today, today,
i live for one thing.
to give You praise in everything i do.
yeah, all the praise goes out to You."

2006-12-15T16:13:00.000-08:00

"i kept my promise till the end
but you broke my heart once again.
guess I was just too blind to see
what a fool i was to listen to
the things you said to me."

2006-12-14T16:24:00.000-08:00

a very bad and boring day.

i guess you wont be there to hold me.
when my blue skies turn to grey.
& i wont have to look out for that silver lining.
cos i know it'll never be there.

i guess you wont be there to comfort me.
when my smiles turn to tears.
& i wont have to look out for your shoulders
cos i know they'll never be next to mine.

i guess you wont be there to love me.
when my morning turns to night.
& i wont have to look out for you.
cos i know you'll never come.

2006-12-06T17:15:00.000-08:00

ooooh. december.
the leaves fall & the air chills.
the season is coming & everyone goes shopping.
last-minute shopping.

& then i come to think of You.
does the world know the true meaning of CHRISTmas?
or is it all about the sleighs, bells, trees & presents?
do fat men in red & white, with big beards, come in sleighs led by reindeers?
do they drop presents from chimney tops?
do they have elf helpers that wrap our presents for them?

or is the meaning behind Christmas about a very ordinary Baby who was born into a world to save it?
is the meaning behind Christmas about this very priceless Gift?
is the meaning behind Christmas about You?

"yes, indeed."

"why, thank You. thank You very much."

2006-11-29T13:34:00.000-08:00

i know i'd stand in line until you think
you have the time to spend an evening with me.
& if we go someplace to dance i know
that there's a chance you won't be leaving with me.

& afterwards we'd drop into a quiet little place
& have a drink or two.
& then i'd go and spoil it all
by saying something stupid like i love you.

i can see it in your eyes you still despise
the same old lies you heard the night before.
& though it's just a line to you for me it's true
& never seemed so right before.

i practice everyday to find some clever lines
to say to make the meaning come true.
but then i think i'll wait until the evening gets late
& i'm alone with you.

the time is right, your perfume fills my head
the stars get red and all the night's so blue.
& then i'd go and spoil it all by saying
something stupid like i love you.

"something stupid" by robbie williams & nicole kidman.

2006-11-23T22:05:00.000-08:00

when my blue skies turn to grey,
will you still be there to hold me?

but i will wait till i see that silver lining.

2006-11-17T21:02:00.000-08:00

i went to changi airport's starbucks just a few sundays back.

& this is what i saw at the counter where they keep all the pies.

how VERY encouraging.
i mean, seriously.
its life as a chicken pie is bad enough alrdy.
& you're still telling your customers that its ugly?!
spare a thought for that poor thing man!

what did i say about speaking discouraging comments to the poor pie?!
loll.

something to just brighten your day.
[unless it didnt.
whatever, at least i made an effort.]
=))

2006-11-17T20:39:00.000-08:00

i look up to the twinkles that brighten up the young night,
& think about the face that brightens up my every day.

you mean a lot to me.
=)

thank you for being you.

2006-11-03T20:44:00.000-08:00

OMG.

you wont believe this.

i was in a cab with becky on our way to bugis.

& in the cab, guess what we spotted!!!

[what else can two english level-toppers spot?!]

SPELLING ERRORS!

so i decided to take a snapshot of it.

check this out:

STILL CANT TELL?!

check this out:

im sorry.

but WHAT THE HELL is SIT BELT?!
shouldn't it be SEAT belt?!
lol.
this is the kinda thing that tourists laugh at when they come over to s'pore.
i mean, seriously man..
who on earth would make such a simple mistake?!
LOLL, i still find it funny, though.

2006-11-03T14:22:00.000-08:00

i dont seem to have anything to talk about.
my holidays are pretty mundane.
all i do is stay at home & watch lost.
it's getting quite interesting, i must say.
im making a date with the usuals.
since you can hardly come out,
i'll just have to keep myself busy.

oh!~
btw.
i have to sing the birthday song to a girl who's just turned fourteen.
FINALLY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
HAPPY BIIRTHDAY TO KELLYYYYYY............................
HHHHAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYY BIIIIIRRRRRRTTTTTHHHHHDDDDDDAAAAAYYYYYY TTTTTTOOOOO YYYYYYYOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU...........................
*claps*
yayyy!!!

my dear girl, you're FINALLY fourteen!
after ten thousand years.
=D
you're a fun girl to be with.
always crazy & bubbly & happy.
along with nna, the world will go upside down!!
=D
stay that way.
i love you always!!!!!
=D

kay, im going off to meet my motherrrrrr.
=D
LOVES!

2006-10-31T16:36:00.000-08:00

"for i ne'er saw true beauty till this night."

-romeo & juliet by william shakespeare.

the holidays are making me rot.
fortunately,
im hanging with the girls tmrw.
gonna bond for awhile & spend some quality time tgther before nna leaves for taiwan.

& then im yet to hang with jas & roxanne.
and lots more people.
right now,
im gonna glue my eyes to my all-time favourite show of all.
=D
LOST.

see ya later, 'gators!

2006-10-26T11:35:00.000-07:00

my world just got better.
& im smiling a lot now.

thank you.
i wanna be the happiest girl in the world.
& right now,
i am.

2006-10-20T16:37:00.000-07:00

try mixing coke with mentos.
whoaaaa.
eighth wonder of the world.
=D

i took a video of it.
just that it's pretty hard to see cos when the coke bottle flew,
it blended in with it's surroundings.
but here's something that's similar to what happened.

WATCH & ENJOY.
(but dont you dare learn!) =DD
it's MINE. heehee.

{COKE & MENTOS VIDEO}

PRETTY COOL EH????
that's what happened today.

2006-10-17T21:27:00.000-07:00

this post shall be dedicated to my one & only JASLYN:

girl, cheer up. =)
if you have to cry, go ahead.
but dont cry alone.
i'll lend you a shoulder if you need one.
cos ive got two, you can pick which side you want. =D
but seriously, dont be sad.
you've still got me! =D
the world's not over yet.
cheer up okay?
i wanna see that smile & those baby teeth of yours.
you make the world a better place with your smile.
=D

SO SMILE.
hahaa. =DD

2006-10-14T21:52:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAYS.
something else to worry over.
so many places to go, so many things to do.
& i wonder if i have the time.

2006-10-13T05:42:00.000-07:00

the exams are FINALLY over.
it's time to throw those notes & burn those books.

math paper was murder.

suddenly feels weird to stick my eyes on the screen without worrying about the unread textbooks on the table.

2006-10-10T19:39:00.000-07:00

even the best fall down sometimes.
even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
out of the doubt that fills my mind.
i somehow find
you & i collide.

even the best fall down sometimes.
even the stars refuse to shine.
out of the back you fall in time.
i finally find
you & i collide.

CHEN YITING:
I MISS YOU LIKE HELL.
PLEEEASE COME BACK TO S'PORE AS SOON AS YOU CAN.
there's no one who knows me like you do.
=)
thanks for being such a humongously GREAT friend.
you'll always be in my heart & mind.
JUST FLY BACK WHENEVER YOU CAN.
=D

2006-10-07T20:28:00.000-07:00

Daddy,
i need Your edification one more time.
just one more time.

"My child, don't listen to what he says.
for he's just a voice telling you you're not good enough.
he doesn't appreciate you.
he doesn't honour you.
he doesn't respect you.
why him?

Renn, you're worthy of My love and only My love.
I will not let the world take you away from Me.
for I died for you.
what more could I not do?

come, take My hand.
and I'll show you the world.
I'll show you the wonders of My creation.
I'll make your wildest dreams come true.
I will lavish you with My love.
for there is no one else in My heart.
BUT YOU.

will you come back & be My child?
for I have always been Father.
I have always been Lover.

I am waiting for you.
and will be waiting for you.

now, always and forever."

love, Your Dad.
Almighty God.

2006-10-03T22:13:00.000-07:00

im missing out on the best things in life.
y'know, sometimes,
when i look back at what ive been through in life,
mine is pretty boring.
considering the fact that...
>i have never bunjee-jumped.
>i have never dated someone.
>ive only sat a couple of rollercoasters. [all of which, ive been scared outta my WITS.]
>ive never had more than two piercings.
>ive never smoked.
>ive never tried drugs.
>ive never had a tatoo.
>ive never got my name on the newspaper.
>IVE NEVER EVEN HELD A GUYS HAND. [LOL, IM SERIOUS.]

as in,
it's these things that you have to at least try ONCE in life.
or when you look back, you go:
dammit! my life is soooo bloody boring!

yeah, that's the kinda feeling i dont wanna get.

how have you been?
i havent really been properly communicating with you for awhile.
i wont deny the distance between us, i notice, is getting far.
further than last time, anyway.
im scared.
& i would wish upon a million stars that you'd me here.
right by my side.
& that nothing will ever come between us.
but im uncertain about my wishes coming true.
i long for your hand in mine.
& my heart in yours.

for these words are true.
this, i promise you.

2006-09-30T19:35:00.000-07:00

omfg.
when boredom sets into your life,
you're miserable.
all you do all day is study.

& occasionally, use the computer.
but apart from that, you're studying.
i came up with this theory:
BOREDOM= STUDYING + STONING.
how's that?
pretty true eh?

okay, maybe studying isnt THAT boring.
try this:
BOREDOM= STONING + PLAYING WITH YOUR FINGERS & DOING NOTHING ELSE.
yeah?
yeah.
i think that's much better.
considering the fact that people play with their fingers when they're bored.

or maybe this!
BOREDOM= STONING + ACTING/BEING RETARDED.
of course, i wouldnt blame you if you were BORN retarded & spastic.
=)
nah, im kidding.

okay,
i bet you can tell that im not bored.
cos what im doing now doesnt match any of my theory.
except maybe the last one.
but im not stoning.
so that doesnt count.
=D

2006-09-29T19:41:00.000-07:00

the last time i saw the whiteboard in my class,
it said: 22 DAYS TO EOY.
& now, i see it say: 4 DAYS TO EOY.
dammit.
im running out of time.

im running out of time.
i have exam papers to complete.
friends to save.
things to tell my loved ones.

but when will this world end?
i want it to end now.
RIGHT THIS MOMENT.
i cant take the stress anymore.
i cant take the pressure anymore.
i cant take the rejections anymore.

of course, if this world were to be sucked up by a HUGE vacuum cleaner,
i'll ask God to hold on for 10 minutes.
i have something to tell you.

"i dont trust people easily.
but you're one of those that i'll keep forever.

i shouldnt care or wonder where and how you are.
but i cant hide this hurt inside my broken heart.
im fighting back emotions that ive never fought before,
cos im not supposed to love you anymore."

so if you mean what you said,
then i'll mean what i said.

2006-09-28T21:03:00.000-07:00

i want to sing
until i am lost in Your love.
till im found in Your presence.
worshipping before Your throne.

moved by the Spirit
entering into Your flow.
how precious this moment,
Lord, i want i You to know.

it's You.
You who have won my heart.
taken me into Your arms,
comforted me like a Friend.

Your love
surrounded me from the start.
i never want to be apart
from You ever again.

2006-09-23T19:15:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GRRRRREE-EEEENNNNNNN.....
HAPPPPPPYYYYYYY BBBBBBIIIIIIRRRRRRTTTTTTHHHHHHDDDDAAAAAYYYYY TTTTOOOOO YYYYYOOOOOUUUUUU.
=D

happy 16th.
ah, you're FINALLY 16.
after 245420 centuries.
=D
okay, so sixteen means:
MORE MATURE.
MORE WISE.
MORE DISCERN.
so, yeah, happy 16th. =)
BE BLESSED.
BE TREMENDOUSLY BLESSED.

2006-09-20T20:07:00.000-07:00

yes,
i have definitely witnessed & experienced.
that no love is greater than Your love.
& i feel for those who dont know You.
Father, indeed, no greater love.
no greater love.
than Your love.

i search & find solace elsewhere.
but i cant seem to get the exact duplicate of Your love.
i look for love in the wrong places.
& i cry when i dont get it.
when that love is right infront of me.
when that love is deep down inside my heart.
this kind of love cannot be described.

such love is...
amazing.
such love is wonderful.
such love is marvellous.
such love is glorious.
such love cant be bought.
such love cant be taught.
such love is indescribable.
such love is beyond comprehension.

Jesus,
Your love is

PRICELESS.

2006-09-19T20:13:00.000-07:00

ANOTHER GROSS DAY.

all you destroyers of my day, WATCH OUT. lol.
but thanks kel,
you brightened it up A WHOLE LOT.
sometimes, it's good to just sit next to you the whole day.
and listen to you sing all your barney crap.
=D
it's healthy.
it makes one happy.
AHAHAAA.
i still have the recording.
dont worry, i wont post it on the internet.

sheesh, i really dont know what to say to you.
im upset and you cant tell.
i think you should GO AND DIE.

to amelia:
eh, what the eff did i say?
on pearl's blog, i got mention your name meh?
and i WAS busy yesterday, OKAY?!
dont believe me, whtvr.
suit yourself.
i wasnt talking about you on pearl's blog.
but whatever.
if you dont choose to believe,
i wont bother defending myself.
COS I REALLY DONT CARE.

2006-09-18T18:55:00.000-07:00

i cant be bothered to start describing this horrible day.
i didnt think my mondays will turn out so....
terrible.
i hate tuesdays.
cos there's art.
after that 1 hour 10 minutes of mr. tan's mundane face,
i love tuesdays just like any other day.

smiles are definitely not absent from my face.
but the other way round in my heart.
im yet to find something eventful to make my day.
to make my week.
to make my year.
to make my life.

gee.
guys are like govt bonds, they take so long to mature.
guys are like mascara, they run at the sight of emotions.
guys are like laxatives, they irritate the shit outta you.
guys are like lava lamps, fun to look at but not very bright.

LOL.
and wont my lady friends just AGREE with me?!
=D
sure they will.

2006-09-17T18:31:00.000-07:00

OH CRAP.
CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP.
CRAAAAAAAPPPPPPP.
what do i do?
what do i say?

dilemmas get me growing white hairs.
guilt makes me stressed.
and now im caught and stuck in the middle and i dont know what to do.
it's like a thousand voices in my heart and in my head.
all telling me different things.

im sorry too.
i understand,
but im not sure if i can look pass your flaws.
im not sure if i can bring myself to.
but when i do,
=)
i'll let you know.

2006-09-16T21:11:00.000-07:00

the week's been fair.
not exactly very exciting.
except for what happened yesterday.
the call.
sigh.

i cant stop thinking about it now.
why did you even bother to ask?!
i thought you didnt want to talk to me?!
why even bother asking.
since i mean nothing to you.

i hate you for cheating me.
i hate you for making me believe that you loved me.
but yet.
i cant seem to stop thinking about you.

im torn in between.
Lord, please...
help me.

2006-09-13T18:19:00.000-07:00

okay,
and so im thinking what to post about.

my day?
NAHH.
i think that's the most boring thing ever.
EVER.
i swear.
WHO THE HELL WOULD WANNA KNOW ABOUT YOUR DAY?!

what im doing?
NAHH.
that's stupid.

UGH.
i cant believe im stressing on what to post!
so there's no topic to this post.
or if there is,
it should be:
RENN IS THINKING AND CRACKING HER BRAINS ON WHAT TO WRITE ON HER POST WHEN SHE'S JUST POSTED ONE THAT IS WITHOUT A SUBJECT. OH WAIT! THIS IS A SUBJECT.

LOLL.
im just being corny and cranky.
and im packing my bags to go blog visiting now.
=)

2006-09-12T20:41:00.000-07:00

you mean NOTHING to me.
NOTHING.
not even worth a speck of dust.

and im just not THAT into you.

2006-09-11T21:11:00.000-07:00

Why does my heart cry?
feelings i cant fight
you're free to leave me, but just dont deceive me
and please, believe me when i say:
i love you.

-from the movie "Moulin Rouge".

2006-09-07T19:10:00.000-07:00

ive got my hands over my ears.
i dont wanna hear you no more!
i dont wanna believe a word you say.
go away!
i point to everyone of them.
all you people are out to hurt me!!!
i drop to the floor.
face buried in my wet, tear-filled hands.
why must you do this to me?
why did i believe you?
i look down and see a long, sharp knife in the center of my heart.
and all i have to say is:
ouch.

i see eyes staring at me.
shaking their heads while they look.
all around in a circle.
ive fallen to the floor.
while their standing up watching me.
wont anyone reach out a hand to help this crying girl?
does she deserve your nasty looks?
does she deserve your nasty comments?
she never wanted things to turn out this way either.
she had no control.
she had no choice.
all she did was believe someone, who happened to be the wrong person.
and she fell in to this deep pit.

and from among the crowd,
an arm reaches out.
i look up and see Your face.
Your pure and blemishless face.
reluctant, yet desperate.
uncertain, yet left with no choice.
i grab hold of Your hand.
oh, those hands.
so warm.
so firm.
so strong.
so loving.
so pure.
so holy.
but yet,
those hands were bleeding.

and, like a movie,
it was all playing infront of my eyes.
the moment when You hung on a tree,
the moment when the mallets were swung down and nails went through Your hands.
the moment when those whips torn every inch of Your flesh.
the moment when those thorns pierced through your head,
and spear through your side.
the moment when every ounce of Your blood dripped dry.
and the final moment,
when You said:

"renn, I did it just for you.
only because
I love you."

i have found true love.

2006-09-06T22:46:00.000-07:00

Saviour, He can move the mountains.
my God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save.

forever, Author of salvation.
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

2006-09-05T10:21:00.000-07:00

why????????

2006-09-02T18:52:00.000-07:00

EXAMS.
in just about 3 or 4 weeks time.
im afraid i wont get into a class of my choice.
im afraid i might not make it.
but then i lean on Your word.
and i feel alive again.
refreshed.
i feel there's a reason to live.
You died to give me eternal life.

what more could i ask for?

i hope you will wait.
for when the time is right,
i will be yours
and you'll be mine.

love is indeed magical.

2006-09-02T18:07:00.000-07:00

BACK BY POPULAR DEMAND.

i wont be posting as often as before.
but who cares?
im back with my blog.
so, enjoy.
and shut up.
=)

2006-07-18T19:20:00.000-07:00

boring day.
dont feel like posting.
so it's gonna be a short one.
=)

bye.
lol.

2006-07-11T19:29:00.000-07:00

i watched "love me if you dare" ystdy.
freaking good!
but BLOODY disturbing.
go rent the dvd or smth.
it's in french.
but they have english subtitles.

and no,
the subtitles are NOT screwed.
=)

GO BORROW IT.
damn sweet.
but freaking disturbing.
=)

2006-07-08T16:14:00.000-07:00

when im depressed..

i scratch myself at the same spot over and over until it starts bleeding.
i torment myself.
i used to cut myself.
i lock myself up in the room and cry out loud. longing for someone who can hear me.
i have murderous thoughts about those i hate.
i see the people i hate get killed.
i see myself killing them.
i see myself tormenting and torturing them.
i see myself mutilating them.

when im happy..

i laugh.
i laugh.
i laugh.
i smile.
i do retarded things.

when im angry..

i contain my anger.
i keep the hatred in me and let the bitterness grow.
i tell myself that im determined to hate you for as long as i live.
[if i have your photo] i take it out. and in the photo, i scratch your eyes out.
i curse you.
i cry.

when im excited..

i smile.
i anticipate.
i wait.
and then, i either smile.
or i cry bitterly.

when im sad..

i cry.
i cry to God.
i cry in my room.
i cry.
and cry.
and cry.

when im irritated..

i give you faces.
i grunt.
i am annoyed.

that's what i do when i get all emotional.
im dangerous, yes i know.
but i'll be happy from now on.
=)

2006-07-04T15:56:00.000-07:00

OH, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!
MY BLOODY NAME IS RENEE'. PRONOUNCED RE-NAY!
NOT REEEEEE-NAY!

ive got someone coming up to me today,
calling me reee-nay.
and, knowing me, i didnt turn.
COS IF YOU CANT GET MY BLOODY NAME RIGHT,
I WONT RESPOND.

and DONT mess with the name.
VERY sensitive topic there.

just a reminder,
if you cant pronouce RENEE',
JUST CALL ME RENN.
I WILL RESPOND.

2006-07-03T17:17:00.000-07:00

OMGGGG.
im so bloody excited.
im getting my phone soon.
=D
once in 7 months.
yikes, that's long.

i dread every minute of school.
i see people shooting looks at me.
nasty looks.
and i just have to tolerate it.
people listen to their side of the story.
and does anyone ever care about mine?
God?
yeah, maybe.
but sometimes, i cant stand God.
He doesnt take sides cos He loves us all.
and sometimes, i love Him.
cos He tells me that vengeance is His.
BUT WHEN?

all i ever see is them getting better day after day.
and all i ever see is myself getting worse.
my self-esteem seems to be dropping too.

i find it hard to trust now.
and it gets harder everyday.
im not sure if their gonna let out what i tell them.
i cant tell right from wrong.
i cant tell if i can trust that person or not.
for me to trust you,
you gotta gain my trust.
i have to feel as if i can trust you with my life.

and for now, that would only be one or two.
EXCLUDING MY FAMILY.
maybe just one.
that's pathetic.

i need to travel again.
i need to get away from singapore.
for good.
until things have simmered, then i'll come back.
or maybe heaven's an appropriate place.
i'll think about it.
and ask God if He's got tickets for me.

2006-07-01T12:21:00.000-07:00

and more photos. =) previous photos are on previous two posts. =) ENJOY.
LOOK FOR THE CAPTIONS ON FRIENDSTER. and laugh your ASS off. =)

that's all! =D

2006-06-30T14:55:00.000-07:00

more pictures. =)
the previous ones are in the previous post. =)
GO CHECK IT OUT!

PHOTOS FOR GENTING! =D

2006-06-30T13:51:00.000-07:00

i left on the 20th of june for genting.
came back on the 22nd.
so, yeah, here are some pictures. =)
enjoy.

2006-06-29T12:44:00.000-07:00

now that i think back,
every long lost dream led me to where You are.
and i couldnt see how every sign pointed to where You are.
others who broke my heart, they were like nothern stars.
gosh, so this is it.
this is revival, eh?
this is the end time.
this is what it all comes down to.
will things remain the way it is?
or will things change?
for the good, or the bad?

why doesnt Jesus just appear in our faces right infront of us?!
I NEED TO ASK HIM.
I NEED HIS SHOULDER TO CRY ON.
I NEED HIS WORDS TO EDIFY ME.
I NEED HIM.
I NEED HIS EARS TO LISTEN TO ME.
why is He intangible?!
i find it hard to communicate.
it feels like im talking to myself.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING IN MY LIFE NOW, LORD?!
DO YOU KNOW?!
HUH?!
IF YOU DO, WHY ARENT YOU DOING ANYTHING?!
YOU HAVE THE POWER!
SQUEEZE THESE PEOPLE!
TO DEATH!
IM SICK AND TIRED!
SICK!
AND!
TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna be happy.
again.
i wanna be joyful.
truly joyful.
i wanna feel what it feels like to be happy one more time.

2006-06-27T17:37:00.000-07:00

My hope is built on nothing less
than Jesus' blood and righteousness.
i dare not trust the sweetest frame
but wholly lean on Jesus' name.

when darkness seems to hide His face,
i rest on His unchanging grace.
in every high and stormy gale,
my anchor holds within the veil.

His oath, His covenant and blood
support me in the whelming flood.
when all around my soul gives way,
He then is all my Hope and Stay.

when He shall come with trumpet sound,
oh may i then in Him be found.
dressed in His righteousness alone,
faultless to stand before His throne.

2006-06-23T16:14:00.000-07:00

special thanks.

JASLYN:
girl, i dont know how to thank you.
you were there for me when i was lonely and angry.
you were like a shoulder that i could lean on.
you're truly a god-sister of everyone's dreams.
and you're MY godsister.
im proud of having a darling like you.
thank you SO MUCH.

XANNES:
hot babe!
thanks too.
though we're just friends, but you stood up and fought for me.
you make me feel at home.
i enjoy every moment spent with you.
=)
thanks LOADS.

MARLON:
last and definitely not least, you.
you were there for me when no one else was.
you edified me, told me there's still hope bcos of Jesus.
you told me there was still hope to live on bcos of God.
i'll never forget you in a lifetime.
you're as close as a brother.
you helped me fight this battle and get her down.
you're my partner-in-crime.
i told you things that i never dared tell anyone else.
i told you my problems.
i cried to you.
i told you the things that were deepest in my heart.
but as far as i can rmbr, you never did turn me down.
i trusted you SO SO SO SO much.
and i guess i did the right thing.
thank you.
to have a friend like you is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
you're the best friend anyone can have.
you're my best friend. =)
thanks crazy guy!

P.S. your photo is there already. can right?

2006-06-14T16:34:00.000-07:00

im at small jon's house.
=D
i miss all of them!
WHERE'S CRYYS!?
when you're here, im not.
when im here, you're not.
=(
i miss you girl!

anw,
i wna play pool.
and im gonna play pool.

btw, jas & xannes.
I CANT WAIT FOR OUR DATE ON MONDAY!!
=D
it's gonna be soooo fun.
i'll try to borrow my sister's digi cam, yeah?
so we can be take pictures!
LOADS OF PICTURES!!!
=D

2006-06-13T17:38:00.000-07:00

dang!
can you believe it?!
the starbucks in the marine parade library closed down!
it's doing some freaking renovation.

and, yeps!
you guessed it!
im in the library!
again.
that's how i knew starbucks was down.

i have no idea why,
but i always get inspiration to post in the library.
maybe it's cos i have nothing better to do in the library.
im not much of a bookworm anyway.

and there are these pair of kids at the computer unit infront of me.
and they're pissing the shit outta me!
they keep making unnecessary noises with the effing keyboard.
LIKE ALL THE TYPING KEYBOARDS ARE NOT NOISY ENOUGH!
you just HAD to make it worse!!!
STFU!

btw.
check out my new links.
i know,
it's not quite done yet.
still under construction.
BUT ARENT THEY SUCH BEAUTIES?!
so DONT you dare try to steal them.
cos if i find them on your blog.
I'LL EAT YOU.
LOL.

no, im serious.

2006-06-09T16:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JASLYNNNNNN~~~~!
HAAPPPPPPPYYYY BBIIIIRRRTTTHHHHDDAAAYYYY TTTOOOOOO YYYYYOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU...........!!!!!!
=D

happy birthday, dearest sister.
rmbr im ALWAYS here to share your good&bad times, yes?
=)

I LOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU, SWEETS!

2006-06-06T14:50:00.000-07:00

omfg.
im in the taka library using the internet here.

and there's this really creepy lady sitting next to me.
she asked me if there was anyone sitting at the unit beside me.
and i said no. [cos there wasnt, duh.]

and she stared at me with her humongous eyes and said:
oh, thank you thank you thank you.
wah. so nice!

and started smiling and nodding.
then she looked back to the computer and was still smiling and nodding. [to herself]
OMGG.
so bloody creepy!
and now she keeps talking to herself.

and btw lady,
the computer you're using is effing spoiled!
so go use another one and stop mumbling to yourself!
oh my Lord!!

2006-05-30T13:51:00.000-07:00

i watched x-men 3.
fantastic show.
storyline and camera effects.
all bloody good.
go watch it.
and and and...
stay until after the credits.

the whole spelling bee finals is getting me on my nerves.
im fretting out.
and im soooo nervous cos ive hardly finished.
and the finals is on sunday.

okay, tell me the most loser-fied thing to do during the holidays
is to go to the library to do research work for some blasted history assignment given to you by your bloody history teacher.
TELL ME.
=)
thanks.
cos that's exactly what im doing now.

BUT NO,
im not alone.
ive got the greatest company in the world.
=)
NO, im not attached.
in case you were wondering who it is...
it's my MOM.

lol,
i know that's super anti-climax.

the keyboard here is soooo noisy!
and the lady beside me is staring at me cos im typing so much and so loudly.
LOL.
sorry, babe.
=)

2006-05-26T19:13:00.000-07:00

i made it into the spelling bee finals.
=D

yeah,
im happy.
overjoyed, i'd say.
i dont show it, that's all.

my 4 weeks of vacation will be spent constructively.
i have to attend some debate camp thing.
then i have the EMERGE conference.
and stuffs like that.

really jam-packed.
OMG.
i still have a date with the TUG.
with fjia and gen. [if they're willing to go out]
with JASLYN.
with XANNEEE.
omgg, yeah.

id rather cross the road and die than to cross the overhead bridge.

2006-05-25T12:49:00.000-07:00

TAYLOR HICKS WON AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 5!!
=DD

im soooo happy.
Katherine didnt even deserve to be in the finals.

omgg.
you have to listen to his single.
"Do I Make You Proud?" by Taylor Hicks.
GO DOWNLOAD IT!

im listening to it now,
and im falling in love with that white-haired guy.
hahahaaa.

this is what we dreamed about.

2006-05-24T16:09:00.000-07:00

nope.
not a very favorable day for me.
hated it, in fact.

i havent scolded you for it.
i probably am not even close to scolding you.
everytime i catch a glimpse of you,
i wna kill you.

it has become hatred.
hatred so bad,
it could kill.
hatred so bad,
it's pre-meditated sin.
hatred so bad,
i could be hanged for it.

it's bitterness.
the explicit thoughts have almost become real.

i cant believe you searched my bag for the note i wrote.
what is it you wanna know?!
come to me!
ask me!
dont search it when im gone!

i thought you're a big shot in the school.
who's supposed to be brave and supposed to be standing up to your friends!
why cant you stand up to me now?!
do you have to do it behind my back?!
why cant you come and confront me?!
HUHHHH?!

let me answer for you, shall i?
bcos you're a mouse!
you're scared!
you have no bloody courage!
that's why!!!!!

2006-05-23T21:03:00.000-07:00

that's wuzzy's last day.
her last photoshoot.
her last meal.

i miss you girl.

there is nothing,
there is no one who can replace you in my heart.

you'll always be my wuzzy darling.
=)

PASSED AWAY ON 17th may 2006.

2006-05-23T20:40:00.000-07:00

MEET-THE-PARENTS SESSION.

yeah, she met my mom alright.
sure she did.
she looked scared outta her wits.
i swr.

got back my report book today.
NO, im not gonna tell you how much i got.
hahahahahaaa.

i didnt do up to expectations.
expectationSSS.
ms mastura, mom and dad.
and sister one and two.

they expected a lot from me.
a lot.

sorry, guys.
things were..... not very smooth during the exam period.
things happened.
couldnt concentrate on my studies.
couldnt get my mind off it.

i'll do better next time, i guess.

thanks for believing so much in me, mom.
thanks for cheering me on, dad.
thanks for being my help and support, becky.
thanks for tuitioning me math, pam.

and thanks for picking on me, ms mastura.
LOL.
=D

i rly appreciate it.
(except the last one)
hahhaaa.
but i love you all.
=D
(except the last one)
=)

2006-05-21T19:49:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDDYYYYYYY...................
HHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYY BBBBBBBIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRTTTTTTTTTHHHHHHHHDDDDDDAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY TTTTTTTTTTTTTTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUU...............

lol.
happy 60th birthday, DAD!
=D

you're getting younger.
lol.
a senior citizen, ehh?
now you get purple ez-links.
=DD
how exciting?!

the buffet at Carlton Hotel was yummy-licious.
they had CHOCOLATE FONDUE.

yes,
to all you chocolate lovers out there.
start drooling.
cos i had CHOCOLATE FONDUE.
actually...
it's more of a chocolate fountain.

then they had bananas, strawverries, marshmallows for you to skew.
and put it in the fountain.
WOOHOO!
yummers.
=D

im still staring at the knife you stabbed in my heart.
refusing to take it out.

2006-05-19T22:40:00.000-07:00

it's papa's birthday tmrw.
it's his 60th birthday.
really fast, eh?
i thought so too.

im backing out of pop idol.
dont even know why i joined in the first place.
peer pressure?
most probably.

things have changed.
people have changed.
life isnt the same anymore.

it's tough going through the wilderness period.
but i know You'll pull me through.
You'll be at the finishing line holding the trophy waiting for me.
i sometimes break down and cry.
well, actually, all the time.

im afraid.
im afraid i'll go back to what i used to be.
im afraid i'll betray Your trust in me.
im afraid, Lord.

i've never begged You before.
but i am now.
I'M AT MY WITS END.
I HAVE NO OTHER ROAD TO TURN TO.
IT'S A DEAD END.
I WANNA END ALL OF THIS.
IM DOWN ON MY KNEES PRAYING.
IM DOWN ON MY KNEES BEGGING.
PLEASE.
HELP ME, LORD.
PLEASE.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I DONT KNOW WHO TO TURN TO.
I NEED YOUR HELP.
I NEED YOUR HELP.
I NEED YOUR HELP.
IT'S HARD.

please.....
)':

2006-05-17T10:29:00.000-07:00

things have been hectic lately.
it's hard thinking about it.

i thought you wouldnt listen to what they say.
i thought you wouldnt bother.
i thought you were a friend.
i really did.

but i guess i thought wrong.

2006-05-16T13:26:00.000-07:00

The diadem of pain
which sliced Your gentle face,
three spikes piercing flesh and wood
to hold You in Your place.

The need for blood i understand.
Your sacrifice i embrace.
but the bitter sponge, the cutting spear,
the spit upon your face?
Did it have to be the cross?

Did not a kinder death exist
than six hours hanging between life and death,
all spurred by a betrayer's kiss?

"Oh Father," i posed,
heart-stilled at what could be,
"im sorry to ask, but i long to know,
did you do this for me?"

2006-05-15T15:44:00.000-07:00

okay.
my posts are getting a bit touchy and emotional.

i miss my darling.
baby, if you go, will i see you agn?
maybe in heaven?
but will you be there?
it's hard to let you go after so much bond we've created.
it's harder for my sister.

dont eat too much sunflower seeds.
i heard they're bad for your health.
but they're yummy, arent they?
i'll pack those for you before you go off, yes?

i love you.
and forever will.
=D

loves;
renn*

mother's day.

2006-05-15T15:38:00.000-07:00

happy belated mothers day, mom!
and happy belated birthday too.
words alone really arent enough to express my gratitude towards you.
=)

OH.
and not forgetting wuzzy.
the mother of three.
=)
happy mother's day.
you've been a brave mother.
protecting us humans from your kids.
just to let you know, one of them passed on.
the other two, im not too sure.
but im sure their fine.
=)

I LVE YOU, MOM.
AND I LVE YOU TOO, WUZ.

loves;
renn*

2006-05-15T14:55:00.000-07:00

i guess things just happen for a reason.

i just wanna tell you this.
whatever happened on the 9th of may was totally seen & heard by me.
so dont think im oblivious to everything around me.
im fully aware of what happened.

what you did in the morning of 9th of may.
what you said in the toilet that you promised me you wouldnt say.
what you did behind my back.
where you went behind my back.
ALL OF THOSE WERE SEEN BY ME.
and im utterly shocked.

i trusted you with my life.
yet you betrayed my trust.
i guess that's the only reason why i wont talk to you.
i wont talk to you ever again neither will i bother about you.
go ahead and gossip for all i care.
go ahead and tell tales for all i care.
cos you're the one at loss, anw.

2006-05-13T16:05:00.000-07:00

THIS IS BLOODY SICK. i heard the news only yesterday that Chris Daughtry[the bald guy] got out.

in my bloody opinion, either him or Taylor should've won. THEY ARE REALLY GOOD.
Elliot and Katherine are just mere assholes.

when my sister & i read the news, our mouths were agape[like simon cowell] and we almost cried[like paula abdul].

okay, you guys may just think im talking gibberish now. but wait till you watch AMI season five. THEN YOU'LL KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT.

the two circled in white should be bottom two.

and now, it's so obvious who will win. TAYLOR.
now that Chris is gone.

but instead, things turned out like this:

im devastated and utterly shocked.

I SHALL FILE A COMPLAINT TO AMERICA AND DEMAND THAT CHRIS SHOULD BE BACK ON THE SHOW AND THE BLOODY KATHERINE MCPHEE SHOULD BE OUT.

kay, renn, stop being so drama-ma-ma.

2006-05-10T14:09:00.000-07:00

i dont believe in love
and all its magical promises
i dont believe in smiling stars
and moonlight gentle kisses.

i dont believe in morning calls
to wish a day of sunshine
i dont believe in warm embraces
sneaking from my behind.

i dont believe in all the things
that smell and taste and look pretty
but You made them real,
my Love Divine.
and now i do believe.

-PAMELAting

2006-05-10T13:58:00.000-07:00

to my darling TUG;

it's His love that binds us together.
different streets.
different schools.
different lives.

same hearts.
same Lover.
same Saviour.

we belong to the same God.
that must be what keeps us together, loves.
i rly miss you guys.
im sorry for disappearing like that.
yes, im still surviving.
i'll go back to visit you guys someday, kay?
=D

I LOVE THE USUALS.

loves;
renn*

2006-05-09T12:50:00.000-07:00

hide me in the shelter of Your love,
deep in the center of Your heart, my Lord.
how i want to know you more.
and keep me in the shadow of your wings,
safe in the secret place of holiness
how i need You more & more.

2006-05-04T19:43:00.000-07:00

AHH.
i screwed it ALL.
ALLLLLL.
=((
my compo was like.... SHIT.
my letter-writing wasnt too bad.
but i think i panicked too much.

so, yeah.
it was kinda screwed.
SIGH.
tmrw's chinese paper.
and SURE im studying.
hahahahaa.
i dont study for chinese.
i dont care about chinese.
but i wna pass chinese.
HOW CONTRADICTING.

anw.
im gna upload songs into my darling.
then im going off.
=))
so, yeah.

I LOVE MY JAJA TO THE BITS.
I LOVE MY NNA NNA TO THE BITS.
I LOVE MY KEL KEL TO THE BITS.
I LOVE MY SAH SAH TO THE BITS.
=D

loves;
renn*

2006-04-27T18:53:00.000-07:00

EXAMS.
a word all students fear.
does it bring stress?
does it involve pulling of hair?

YES.
DEFINITELY.
especially to me.
ive been pulling my hair loads of times this week.
i think even God lost count.
HAHA.

i havent even finished my revision.
i have about 1 more chapter to cover for DNT.
1 more chapter for HISTORY.
a THOUSAND more chapters for GEOGRAPHY.
chinese?
OMG, i dont even wna think about it.
1 more chapter for HOME ECONS.
and 5 more LONG LONG LONG LONG chapters for SCIENCE.

exams are my worst nightmare.
i think it's psychological.
like....
the WORD or smth.
they should let us listen to music while doing the paper.
i mean, music cant help us cheat, can it?
so, what harm does it do?

YEAH!
i should write in to the govt.
LOL, im kidding.

TO MY BELOVED JAJA [amanda]:
I AM NOT A LAZY BUMBUM COS IVE JUST POSTED.
=D
lol.
LOVES!

okay,
im back to eating my notes.
LOVES;

renn*

2006-04-21T18:19:00.000-07:00

yikes.
i havent been posting for the last 6 days.

im hitting the books real hard.
my brain hurts.
it feels like it's gna blow any moment.

for the love of God, SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME.
im like, studying every minute of the time im home.
except for now.
told my mom i needed a rest.

I GOT A SIMS 2 EXPANSION PACK FOR MY BIRTHDAY.
from my darling SAI FJIA.
lol.
it's really fun.
PEARL, BE JEALOUS COS I HAVE OPEN FOR BUSINESS.
LOLL.
im kidding, babe.

but the exams are in 13 days.
i cant quite play it.
so my sister's enjoying her time with it.
LOL.

i dont know why.
i suddenly love mr. poddie a lot.
i keep listening to him.
but he just sounds so... GOOD.

LOL.
i bet you guys are thinking im attached, yeah?
LOL, not in my next life.
mr. poddie is my POD.
my iPod.
NOOBS.
lol.

anw.
i think i gotta go back to hit the thick books.

amanda:
JAJA. lol. yeah, ive posted a new post.
JA JA JA JA.
i love doing that.
=DD
LOVES!

love;
renn*

2006-04-15T22:34:00.000-07:00

awww.
i feel so loved.
th whole world's wishing me happy birthday.
THANKS.

OMGOMG.
fengjia's giving me a SIMS 2 expansion pack tmrw.
AHHH.
how cool?!
she wanted to sell to me cos she bought an extra one.
lol, but i forced her to give it to me.
OMG.
how evil am i?!
lol.

i watched take the lead.
it was really cool.
like, they kinda combined BALLROOM dancing with HIPHOP dancing.
yeah.
go watch it.
ANTONIO BANDERAS was bloody hot.
i swear.

anw, im using my sister's lappie.
so i gtg now.
=))
bye.

love;
renn*

2006-04-10T20:43:00.000-07:00

OMGOMGOMG.
the match today was........
FREAKING GOOD!

we had a match against Naval Base Secondary School.
i know, you havent heard of it before right?
LOL, neither have we.

but they were all SUPER tall.
lol, but then agn, the whole world is super tall to me.
okay anw, they all looked good.
like... GOOD.

so blah blah blah... we played.
AND WE WON!
=DD
omfg.
i was freaking happy.
score was 15-12.

shut up, i know it's not much.
but we still won!
LOL.
you should've seen our whole netball team after the match.
we were going crazy.

kel, nna & i came up with a Bimbo Council.
LOL.
and we're all presidents.
how effing bimbotic is that?!
tell me, please!
LOL.
but it was fun.
we also have a motto, pledge & a logo.
and of course, OUR TRADEMARK.
[coloured socks & rings]

but, yeah.
my day was great.
tmrw, we have another match against GuangYang.
on home ground agn.
and i think we might just win this one.
=DD

love;
renn*

2006-04-07T22:03:00.000-07:00

SPEECH DAY.

it was PLAIN BORING.
except for the ELDDS play.
and the grand finale.
LOL.
that part was funny.
Johnovan was SIR BROADRICK.
LAUGH OUT LOUD, GUYS.
LAUGH OUT VERY LOUD.

the rest were all boring.
when it came to the grand finale where all performers had to dance,
johnovan was infront.
and when they came to the shaking part,
HE WAS SO STIFF that i laughed my ass off.
SERIOUSLY.

okay, coming to ystdy.
WE WON THE MATCH AGAINST FUCHUN.
how cool?!
wasnt much actually.
14-12
at the second quarter, the score was 13-5!
then DONT KNOW WHY,
they suddenly shot so many goals.

im suddenly craving for something sweet.
AND THERE'S NOTHING EDIBLE IN MY REFRIDGERATOR.
who am i kidding?
dang.
okay.
im going.
=))

bye.

love;
renn*

2006-04-06T20:16:00.000-07:00

NAHH. jeremy & jason, your SECOND & THIRD PIC. more comments please.

2006-04-06T20:09:00.000-07:00

JASON, click to enlarge and see. tell me what you can about it.

love;
renn*

2006-04-05T20:44:00.000-07:00

had a netball match today.
LOL.
we lost, as usual.
it sucks big time man.
the score was 13-23.

dont ask anymore.
here's what you need to know, so shut up.
and STOP asking.
thanks.

love;
renn*
P.S. yes, im in a dang foul mood.

2006-04-02T20:24:00.000-07:00

my sister bought a pod.
nano.
white in colour.
FREAKING NICE.

i bought a new skirt.
denim.
not too bad.

i went bugis street with my oh-so-funky mother & sister.
i was gna buy this damn nice pair of jeans.
but.....
ended up buying the skirt.

ysdty at manki's bday party,
it was super fun.
everyone pushed everyone into the pool.

and suddenly,
nna & weiwen wanted to jump in.
at their own free will, mind you.
THEY WERE MAD.

then we gave manki a drink as an april fool joke.
yeah.
not any kinda drink.
it was the NNArennKELwenns drink.
ingredients were: chocolate syrup, sour cream, chilli sauce, A&W root beer, kikapoo & sprite.
YES, we were gross.

when we made them drink it,
they actually said it was nice!
LOLL.

okay.
NNA just reminded me that there's history test tmrw.
so i gta go study.
=))

love;
renn*

2006-03-30T20:03:00.000-08:00

i dont really feel like blogging.
and my posts have been short.

so this is another short one.

IM GNA WATCH MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA DVD NOW.
so im not gonna post or be online.

then after that,
im gna watch HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE DVD.

so bye for now.
or forever.
LOL.

love;
renn*

2006-03-29T22:06:00.000-08:00

OMGG.
you would NOT wna know about my day.

right, okay.
let me summarize it all up for you.

MS GOH WAS AN ASS.
and i missed my bus.
lol.
i shall just go into detail.

after going to the parkway POSB bank with my dad,
i kinda forgot to pay my school fees.
but i had the cheque my mom gave me.
so i went back to school from parkway.

then it was drizzling.
and just when i thought it was a light drizzle and it wouldnt kill,
it got heavier.

so nvm.
i went into the admin office ALL DRENCHED AND DRIPPING and handed in the cheque.
while waiting,
MS GOH came in.

and guess what she did!
PICKED ON MY SOCKS, THE FACT THAT I HAD NO NAMETAG AND MY EARRINGS.

so, to cut the long story short.

my day was gross.
=)

love;
renn*

2006-03-27T21:41:00.000-08:00

im trying to look for pictures to put in my friendster profile.
BUT....

urgh.
cant find.

btw, there's this freaking nice wallet from roxy that i found on the internet.
check it out.

if it's not a beauty to you,
shut up.
cos it is to me.
=D
lol.

love;
renn*

MY EARS HURT.